this is weird...it's weird. really weird. effing weird.

so I never considered myself a "blogger." In my mind I use the SNL portrayal of bloggers as being snarky,self involved losers (bitch, please!) but I thought this would be interesting to try. So here it goes. I'm 15, and yes, I do relate to the song by Taylor Swift. I have two younger sisters, Chloe and Nora. Chloe's 12. Nora's 2. it's kind of a big age difference, if you didn't notice. I'm not afraid to admit it, I have more fun being a toddler with Nora than anything else. There is no pressure to be someone else (wow, that's corny). Seriously though, Nora says "I'm just Nora Smithson" and its so true. I'm just Molly Smithson, and that's all I have to be for her, which is nice. Oh, my parents. My mom is pregnant. again. She's amazing though,drives me everywhere, we're really good friends and I tell her everything though, so it's not weird that she's pregnant. I hope that was enough compliments that she doesn't get mad at me for writing this about her. My dad's great too. He's super chill but he's really smart too. I compare every science teacher I have to them because I'm pretty sure it was his destiny to be a science teacher. If I had to make 3 wishes, it would be that my dad became a science teacher, I could learn how to ride a bike without actually learning to ride a bike, and that I could marry Ed Westwick. oh, that's another thing. My obsession is gossip girl. There, I said it. My name is Molly, and I am addicted to a trashy teen show on the CW. I seriously find catharsis in it though. I guess my love is blind. That's basically all there is to me. If you really wanted to get down to my core (wow, the cheesy,blog-esque, obsessed with my own life points just keep going up) there's only 5 things you'd need.
1. Charlie Bartlett- GREAT MOVIE. If you haven't seen it, watch it. When charlie talks to the guy about not killing himself it makes me never want to kill myself (not that I ever did want to kill myself. I love life alot,which is super cheese to say but kind of a long story).
2. It's a Kind of Funny Story by Ned Vizzini (sp.)- So great. It makes me not feel like such a freak for having weird feelings and thoughts, which I do alot. and the last chapter is another why would you ever want to kill yourself thing.
3. "A Beautiful Mess" by Jason Mraz- God this is self centered,but I relate to the girl he's describing so much.
4. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty Smith- This book amazes me because it's so old,and yet I can relate to Francie,the main character, so much. I read it whenever I feel down or off: If I can't sleep or if I'm having guy trouble (random thought: when people talk about guy/girl trouble, doesn't it sound like car trouble? I think these two types of trouble correlate) or if I'm just down.
5. 'Fernando Pando' by The Virgins- such an amazing,simple song. I just love the line where he's freaking out and the girl says "man, I don't want to play around with words, I just want to lay with you." SO TRUE. That's all I want to do with a guy. Just chill and appreciate life (CHEESY). Just have a nice philosophical conversation with nothing about how much life sucks at the moment. just lay with you.
oh my god, I completely forgot my friends. This does make you self centered. alright well
there is:

• AAO: the most amazing person in the world. The Serena Van der Woodsen to my Blair Waldorf. She's Marie Antoinette and I'm Audrey Hepburn. She's Bo, I'm Mo. She does everything so well. except for baking,but I don't hold that against her. She paints, she sings, she designs, she gives sage advice that doesn't feel disdainful but is definitely correct, and she's always been nice,but she's not afraid to gossip like nobody's business. Whenever I talk to her, I feel like a better person.
• ECF: we are basically soulmates... We always have the same school/boy/life problems, yet she always seems to have it more under control,so I just listen to her. I have not recalled a single time when we have fought, because it is impossible with her. like really, she's an amazing dancer AND singer AND actor and she's a hell of a lot smarter than me,and yet she is more grounded than anyone I have ever met. SO GREAT.
• JNB: the most honest person IN MY LIFE. thank you for standing up when I was wrong about the last thing we fought about but couldn't realize it. because I WAS SOOOOO WRONG. and then YOU came and apologized. with me in my pajamas. You are so fantastically relatable (is that a word). I love you and I miss you!
• LKC: IM SO GLAD WE'RE BETTER FRIENDS NOW! like last year, we'd comment on things, and it would be like you knew exactly what I was talking about... and this year we've gotten so much closer and I love it! because you are just so great! like really, you've always been sympathetic with the whole boy problems this year, but then you were honest too. I hope I can be as good a friend as you are to me.
• RCS: I forgot your middle name,because i'm such a crap friend, but I AM SO PROUD OF YOU. you're an amazing friend and dance captain. You always have fantastic guy advice AND I SHOULD LISTEN TO YOU. and WE HAVE NOOOOO SECRETSSSSSS!
• ASM: I am so glad we became friends last year, because what would happen without our message? Seriously. Remember when we fought about the correct usage of derogatory terms for different types of man whores? so great. like really, what would I do without Christopher Hull or Paul Nelson bringing you, me, gaines, and rachel together?
• GBH: really? 7th and 8th grade bus,then 9th grade gym class and you're still not sick of me? how is this possible. You are one of the most honest people I have ever met though, and you are fantastically wise. slightly strange, but I think we're all a little weird.10 DAYS!

that's really all I can write. I'm supposed to be typing a fantastic poem about pyramus and thisbe that I wrote today... just kidding, it's not fantastic. I promise you, this blog will NEVER contain personal poetry.or weird observations on the meaning of life. Just little things. so, yeah. I'm done. I'm going upstairs to read about Abraham Lincoln's cabinet. Oh,yeah, I'm a total nerd. like really, its sad. I'm taking full IB next year and I'm excited. I might need help. Anyways, goodnight.